First thing in the morning, my boyfriend goes off to work. I’m not in the mood to get back to bed. What sucks is there’s nothing to eat at home but Skyflakes. I bet my little one is hungry, he keeps moving in my tummy thinking ‘Yo, I need some nutrients right now!’.
So looking through my make up bag, I can’t believe I still adore my naked basic palette that I bought a few days ago. I just can’t get enough of it because you can’t really buy Urban Decay cosmetics in Hong Kong - such a bummer. I literally put them on even when I’m not heading out. I hope I don’t ran out too quickly because they’re damn expensive.
Welp, I got tons of free time today; how I wish I got enough cash to go out swimming in the public pool or either way go to the beach. I still can’t figure out what to do. I’m thinking of playing The Sims 3 but I don’t know, I don’t feel like it. Hmm, paint my nails? Done that last night.
Oh well, thank God for Youtube I can totally listen to Coldplay all day.
Right now, I’m 31 weeks and 3 days. My little one keeps moving around in my tummy like there’s no tomorrow. I have gained weight and my stretch marks are getting worse, but I’m pretty sure they’ll fade in time.
I still got a lot in mind about things to buy for my baby and for an apartment that we’ll be renting by this month. Hopefully, we’ll get a good place to live in. I’m very impatient about things these days and I always crave for ice cream - I gotta stop though.
Everything else is going great, one more month to go and I’ll be due. I hope it’s not bad as I’m expecting it to be. I can definitely do this!
Seriously need to organize what to store in my makeup bag.
A friend of mine once told me that writing down thoughts or feelings could help me get through my emotions.
To start off, I don’t really know how I’ve been because some days I’m happy but some days I’m sad. I just don’t know what to feel anymore. Sometimes, I feel empty because I’m emotionally just.. alone. I don’t really know if what I’m feeling are hormonal because of my pregnancy but I’ve been very down lately.
I don’t seem to understand why some people enjoys bringing your self-esteem down at the point you actually have to ask yourself if you are what they say you are. For a moment, I just didn’t want to trust anyone. “They tell you to be yourself then they judge you." actually hit me because it’s damn true and I believe it relates to the most of us.Lately, one of my best friends genuinely said that she wanted to tell me this personally that there’s a lot of people being so plastic that they say I’m childish. And she agreed because she observed the way I talk to her. Then, she tells me she’s not judging me. She also said I should totally choose my friends wisely because she thinks my other friends are not real. I don’t really know what’s her catch but I don’t really like people telling me what to do and who to be friends with. I might take her advises in a wrong way but I know what I’m doing. I just don’t understand why she had to tell me this through Whatsapp and tell me in a wrong time while I was sharing something that I would only tell her.
I’ve known her ever since we were little kids and I feel like avoiding her at some point. I just don’t feel comfortable with someone who actually chews you over. It hurts that she doesn’t really tell me my good sides or appreciate my efforts or anything like that.
Aside from that, I still don’t think I’m that childish.
First of all, I am an open minded person once you get to know me well. But then, I don’t open up things that aren’t meant to be said.
Sometimes, it’s my own fault for being open too much on my fragile moments about my life yet people talk shit behind your back and make opinions about it.
Well, you learn from your mistakes. And I’m still in progress.
I’ve been craving for chicken lately and the only thing I can think of is McDonald’s mcnuggets with BBQ and mustard sauce. Oh yeaa! Unfortunately, I do restrain myself from it no matter how much I crave for it.
But anyway, my boyfriend and I haven’t been arguing that much since his aunt and cousins came to stay with us for a while which they arrived from the Philippines a few weeks ago. I have been bonding with them as much as I could and everything’s going pretty good.
I’ll write as much as I can when my mind isn’t that blank. Kind of tired about certain things.
you just brought a smile on my face. thank you so much for the positive vibes! i appreciate it so much and im glad there are people like you in the world :D